In Remembrance (to Myla on what would have been her 10th birthday)

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She would have turned 10 this week.

In our family, for your 10th birthday you get to choose between a go-all-out friends party or a day trip experience (think Amusement park, etc.) with just the family. Ella chose a friends party, the boys chose the adventure, and we probably won't know what Zoe will choose until the day before.

It's always the not knowing that stops me: What would Myla have chosen? Friends or adventure? Cake or cobbler or pie? Would she have been into books or animals or art or sports or...

It's such a strange hollow feeling to miss someone you never knew.

I'm reminded, that walking into this week, I must drink again from the stream of sorrow that cannot be fully remedied in this life.

And yet, I do not want these lingerings of grief to be eased, for in them I see the sureness of the presence of God - I feel Him weeping with me. In them is found a sweetness. A gift to hold thoughts of her. She is not forgotten.

Her short life still bears impact: the beginning of my re-making into a Christ-follower more sympathetic, more compassionate, and deeply more conscious of my frailty and daily dependence upon Jesus; as one more invested in the hope of  the resurrection of the body and the return of the King, than ever before.

My dear Myla,

     My heart treasures you and the short time I held you in my body. 
You are missed and loved and remembered.


Your Momma


There are many things that can only be seen through eyes that have cried.
- Archbishop Oscar Romero

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
- Psalm 34:18
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Beautiful Jenn. Love you...