like a ton of bricks

By | 8:07 AM 2 comments

At the risk of sounding like a whiner, when all I want is to just be real, I feel the need to admit that I seem to be in a season of my life where things feel...heavy.

It's a bit scary to admit that. After all, I am a missionary. Sort of. And we aren't supposed to feel anything but peace and joy and rainbow unicorns. Right?!

The reality is everything seems to be taking a lot of effort, nothing feels easy or light.

My marriage is strong, I'm staying pressed into Jesus, my kids are healthy and thriving, I have great friends, an active ministry I get to be a part of, a roof over my head, and so on and so forth. I know I'm blessed.

And yet, things still feel heavy right now.

Yes, my marriage is strong, but it still takes a lot of work.
My kids are amazing, but sometimes the training process is so utterly draining and defeating.
Rinse and repeat for every single area in my life.

We are in a putting down roots season, and that means growth, and sometimes growth comes with pain and requires effort.

What I know and what I feel are two different things.
And yet, I have to choose to live in what I know and trust that the feelings will come around.

Maybe you can relate? Maybe you are in a season of heaviness yourself?

I offer no advice, just a few verses that keep me going, one foot in front of the other...

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9

"Never tire of doing what is right." 2 Thess 3:13

"Surely God is my help; He is the one who sustains me." Psalms 54:4

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Becky Swann said...

Needed this so much today!

What I know and what I feel are two different things: whew, I hear you on that, sister. Rock on, dear. You are admired and loved from afar.